Just a bit of thought

I’ve been intending to do a New Year’s Post and I still intend to – but I have this super detailed plan I want to complete before I discuss it, so this is just a hold-over post to note what’s been up.

1. I was sick through New Years and it was almost more stressing to me that I didn’t have the mental capacity to create my New Year’s goals prior to the year starting. This is still an element of stress in my life, which makes me think I need to reassess my priorities since I feel like I can’t “start” my New Year’s goals until they ARE carefully plotted out. I even had to convince my psyche that it was okay to take time and kneel down and pray before I had “officially” noted my goals for praying this year. I have major issues.
2. We have officially started the moving process. I felt well enough last weekend to scrub about three quarters of the kitchen, and hope to get much, much further this weekend. But I also have a church event, a dentist appointment (to get another crown), and my goals to finish! Yes, this goals thing is really stressing me out. Speaking of which, Daniel and I are also taking a few hours on Sunday to go through our 10-year plan progress and financial goals and reassess our budget after buying a house. That will be fun. Assuming I’ve finished my New Year’s goals and therefore am not secretly thinking about those instead.
3. I’ve been having work issues. As I think I may have mentioned before. Currently they are looking at moving us all to shift work. And by looking at, I mean they are. We have a pilot on Monday. On the bright side, they are not going to force me into “second” or “third” shift, AND I have high hopes this means no more on-call. However. This also means the end of any flexible hours, and I suspect, the end of telework days, though that has not been confirmed. So, I have been looking at getting a new job (yes, even more so than for them putting me on-call). But God hasn’t given me any clear guidance on that and I’m trying to use wisdom. I did have a thought the other day though. I was talking to God about how much I hate going into work, and how I know I am far too ungrateful about this amazingly well-paid job He gave me and asked Him to please help me with an attitude adjustment. Now, this isn’t anything new. I’ve talked to Him about it before. Thought about it before. Known quite well my fleshly issues in this regard. But this was interesting because, the thought flashed through my head, “You have figured out how little you have to do in your job to still do your job. Why don’t you figure out how MUCH you can do?” I thought that was actually a pretty cool way to look at it. So I’ve been attempting that the last few days at work, and, not saying it’s going to last, but so far I’ve been much happier mentally, even if I don’t have time to do everything I actually want to. I mean, all these analysis items have been occurring to me that I could work on, thereby furthering my experience and expertise AND having fun doing it – And I haven’t been able to yet because I am doing three jobs because both my coworkers are out, but just the attempt to do AS MUCH as I can at work instead of AS LITTLE has, I feel, just helped me feel better about myself as both a person and a Christian. I still think God has plans for me to move on shortly. But until then, I’m going to try and remain grateful for what He has given me and give it my all.